La Vie En Rose

 Ok. It's time for my negativity to end starting now.

I'm not going to delete the depressing posts in this journal, but I'm not going to dwell on depressing stuff anymore. It's just not worth it.

My Life

God, I'm so depressed all the time. Why does my life have to be so difficult? So stressful. I can't find anything to live for. I got accepted to only two out of the 10381123456 colleges I auditioned for. It's so difficult to go through things this way.

I know I'm not really "fat" but I am overweight, and I blame my mother for that. If she had forced me to exercise and eat better as a child, maybe I'd actually feel pretty. Maybe I'd be happy, maybe I'd find love.

I hate high school. I just want to graduate and go to college and be happy, even though I don't know if I'll be happy at the college I've chosen.

I'm so confused right now. I hate my life.

Heaven Tonight

I hold your hand in mine
I hold your hand and you're so lonely
Oh so lonely
Your eyes have lost their light
Your eyes have lost their light and you're empty
Oh my God you're so empty

(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight
(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight

Trying to find the heart you hide
Trying to find the heart you hide in vain
Oh in vain
And you're my haven in life
And you're my haven in death, Baby
Life and Death my Darling

(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight
(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight
(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight
(I'm in love with you)
You are my heaven tonight
(I'm in love with you)

That's right
(I'm in love with you)
That's right
(I'm in love with you)
That's right
(I'm in love with you)
That's right
(I'm in love with you)

Goodbye My Friend (c) MimixRose

Goodbye my friend
I will miss you so
Goodbye my friend
You’ll never know
We’re barely close
But not at all far
And I don’t need you anymore

Come closer my friend
Let me see your eyes
Come closer my friend
Let me watch you die
My smile is nothing
But melancholic fear
You’re in my heart; I hold you dear

I need you my friend
Don’t walk away
I need you my friend
Just for today
I can’t bear to leave
At a time like this
So please just give me one more kiss

You never loved me my friend
Not for a second
You never loved me my friend
No matter how hard I beckoned
I can’t say I’m surprised
By how this tuned out.
In you, after all, I always held doubt.

I’m dying my friend
Leaving you behind
I’m dying my friend
Maybe someday you’ll find
You needed me more
Than you thought you did
But it won’t matter, when of me you’re rid.

Goodbye my friend
I will miss you so
Goodbye my friend
You’ll never know
We’re barely close
But not at all far
And I don’t need you anymore

Introduction

Introductions
Can be completely meaningless.
Without any point whatsoever.
But sometimes,
They can tell people just who you are.
And so I am left here to decide.
Do I tell you who I am?
Or let you figure it out for yourselves?